How I Wrestled Away Control From My Uncon-trollable Anxiety
I was lying on the side of the road, in the middle of the night, covered in mud. An hour earlier my attempt to fix my tub faucet had gone awry. I snapped something that made water shoot out of the knob like Old Faithful. My upstairs was on the verge of flooding, and I ran down to the street in front of my house to turn the water valve off.
But it was stuck, buried, and rusted shut. I tried for an hour to dig it out, scratching and clawing until my knuckles bled. My wife tried to get me to stop, but I kept going. It’s as if something else took over me, something almost animalistic.
And that’s when it happened. At about 11 p.m., sitting on the curb, I curled up in a ball as the anxiety turned into a fullblown panic attack.
If you’re reading this, maybe you can relate? Maybe you’re even desperate? You want, or really need, answers. You’re sinking. Those around you are “walking on eggshells.” You fear going out or engaging. Some days staying in bed is the best or only option, and hope seems elusive.
Not only have I been there, but I also am there. And I want to help you. This can be a lonely, scary time where the only answer feels like giving up. That’s a lie. I’ve been introduced to the truth: there is hope, there is relief, you can find rest.
How did I get there? Below are three truths that helped me wrestle control away from my uncontrollable anxiety. If you’re looking for a change, read on.
1. Name what’s going on inside of you
If you can name something, you own it, you gain control over it. Think about it. It’s present from the Bible to the birthing room, where you give your baby a name and by doing so commit to taking responsibility for it forever.